Make no mistake, this is the take!

pucha pre
naka UNO din ako sa wakas
now lang ako nagkaron ng ganito sa buong academic life ko
wahoo

south korea here i come!!

to date, my time is consumed by three things
1. sleep, which is my natural state of happiness
2. work, my natural state of consciousness
3. school, my natural state of dominance

call it stupidity but naaawa na nga ako sa gf ko kasi we seldom see each other these past few months because of the last two things i mentioned.how i wish i could clone myself (calling all geneticists!)
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i was talking to my buddy last time and we wondered how and why we managed to put ourselves in a position where people listen when we talk in school. Some people believed that we think out of the box, while some think that our work experiences is far greater and varied when it comes to practicing our profession. Back in the undergrad, we were just another tool in the shed.
to be able to talk convincingly to people is one tough nut to crack. You cant easily convince narrow minded people to get out of their comfort zone.Im still observing.
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So the bill was faxed to me and I have to shell out like Php 47K to fix a very vital part in my beamer.
bad trip, mukhang mapo postpone pa ung SK trip ko ah.
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Recently, my father won a board seat in an electric cooperative in siargao. The good new is OK daw ung perks, the bad news is that its not transferable.
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My docs for migration is definitely lagging. ang dami ko ng back log. Now im thinking if I have to put myself in an immigration consultancy.
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I realized that I was on a warpath since two months ago.
im starting to feel that i derive my energy from rage, rage-aholic na cguro ako

gone are the days that i have my lengthy patience, so when i feel like im cornered i fight back with my very insulting mouth.

Oh God, can you please help me out???

Dear Life,
im attempting to write the longest blog of my whole writing career(if there is one) on this spot.
yeah, im writing it and I guess its ok since nobody is reading this crap anyway. so here it goes…
Im writing this with "smoke on the water" playing the first single off my stereo and whatever goes out next will be something else.let me have the groove and insanity my main man!

I really stink at timing you know.
I dont know really, ang dami ko ng napalampas sa buhay ko dahil sa maling posisyon at maling judgement. (call it coincidence but "hari ng sablay" was playing when i wrote this paragraph)
I got late, I missed clients, I missed appointments, gym time, and I guess a truck load of opportunities.
A string of bad karma has left its dent on me kaya palagi na lang maingat sa decision making.
I think I lack good judgement/common sense and critical thinking.

Sabi ng kamag anak ko kapag nagsalita ako, para daw akong baril
kung ang mga salita ko daw ay parang bala, malamang marami ng napatay.
I got this attitude I guess from my former boss. kilala yun na mabigat magsalita sa mga subordinates hehe (langya, now "love song for no one" is playing while im doing this).

You see, I have a lot of missed opportunities but I got the better end of the deal. I got to experience a lot of things, went to lotsa places, got to earn my first million in a span of 2 months, got the chance to leave my favorite place, got to drive a sheer driving pleasure car. But with all of these, minsan pakiramdam ko kulang pa din.

Madalas, kapag may tama o mali, i always try to look what caused it. Then I apply what’s best.

IM not wishing that time reverse itself but I like the idea of  putting myself in the past in order to get hold of the future.

ill continue next time (inaantok na ako eh) 

im a bit disappointed today
i cant force myself to overwork.
sleep is killing me
naku po start na ulit sa sunday ang giyera
hoping i can still buy some time
o cge yun lng

about the gazeebo, i fought with a friend many years ago and i got knocked out with my nose bleeding profusely, after that incident I told myself na mas importante kung pano ako babangon pagkatapos nito.
hanggang ngayon ganun pa rin ang belief ko na kahit ilang beses mo ako pabagsakin mas importante sa akin kung paano ako babangon at kung paano pa kita hihigitan.
sorry na lang sa mga nang api at nang asar sa aking nung board exam…look who’s on the other side of the court now…

i went to your grave today together with one of the rest of wernicke. your parents were there and cried when we got there. we made an effort to reminisce the good ol days. Those days were fun even if ur efforts of screwing it up by playing some pranks were either successful or futile.
I notice that you really were loved by your family, ang hindi ko maintindihan was the reason and the path you chose to do when u left them.
i got to know din most of the gigs you have done with the guys when i left the band and during the conversation with pj it occured to us why u asked the same thing for both of us.
but everything is done and dealt with.
with one click.
its gone…
all gone.

Ladies and Gentlemen, Yes! We are at war.
It has been said that we are at war amongst other things but if you look entirely, we are stuck in a battle that we cant surely win because it is ourselves that we have to overcome,defeat and reform.
We have succesfully put ourselves in a muck that we enjoy. Indeed.
We have proven to ourselves and our neighbors that we as a race cant last that long. BUt let me ask you, did we have fun when good things have happened, did we ever think of the next day if it the fun will last.
Maybe the question is on our fundamentals.
As a race, we were raised with a lot of flaw that we continue to experience. Yes, sirs and ma’am, we are fundamentally flawed.
Look over at the sins of our forefathers and you will see that what we need  to succeed is to drop the whole thing, and turn away from all of this.

If all the things that we have done that we thought are right and it wronged us, maybe the way to get through it is to do the things that we think is wrong  and hoping eventually it will turn out right.

I have given up to the thought that we have failed as a race, as a group of moralists,separatists,sinners,adulterers, kidnappers,thieves and double standard do-gooders i categorically give up.

Yes, Ladies and Gentlemen, there is no solution on sight but to remove the problem physically.
I remember what PolPot did to his nation…IM sure we can afford to do that because we are 84million fundamentally weak people.

Bawasan na natin.
Lets optimize our remaining resources by removing the problem at hand by using our own two hands, together we will achieve the this after we have reduced our size by 30Million. Matira ang matibay.

eto na naman, after 3weeks of rest, isa na namang bakbakan next week. Hopefully i can get things done within contract period
the budget is not that much but im sure i can pull some of the things off
if only somebody will help me out. Lord im already crying for help and I think You know how much I need help but then all of these things will not happen without your blessing so I guess i know you are listening to me.
With all of the things considered, may I ask for your support coz i cant do it alone

your servant,
Mark

nakakatawa!
I was with a friend tonite and we were laughing on many things. It reminded me of my former bandmate and it was like ‘95 again…ahh those were the days man! and i miss those times when life is still simple and uncomplicated.
Im listening to poison’s native tongue album and im proud to admit that i still play this album kahit 11 years old na…it still sounds like it was played yesterday…
I miss the on the spot jamming, making recordings and singing it out like sammy hagar and chris cornell, i miss everything about the whole shebang of being a bandmember, a friend and a singer.
All rolled into one are the things that you dont experience everyday. Im happy that i did those things with the guys…here’s to you…
so, I got to see what’s gonna be on the other end of the line. hopefully i can still snatch it…i know i can do it coz i like the thought of bringing my parents there to see the middle earth. heheeh

salamat nga pala sa mga bumabasa ng mga blogs ko kung meron man…just leave a nasty or nice comment if u like the crap that ive been posting waheheh
joke
till next time